A strange thing happened with regard to 'relationships', and it sort of shook me a bit. Well, a close (assumed, perhaps) friendship, which had been built and savoured the past 3 years, had a bolt, when she just refused to answer calls!! My this was like way beyond my limited imagination or responding resources! I mean, what do you do? We arent kids or teens; And how can you just wipe it all off, in one big swipe??!! and for what? Have or rather had been racking my blessed brains and memory searching for instances which might have triggered this off. Left with none; or is my memory dwindling fast? Whatever, to tell the truth still in a slightly suspended state of shock and surprise, as to how we take so much for granted!!!sigh! And made me realise that yes, we still are social animals, however hard we try to tell ourselves or rather myself that I am not tied up too much in any relationship, and i take things easy, end up being slammed with the actual truth!!

Addendum
the mist was cleared up, (or so i think!) and was suffused once again with a strange feeling. i mean this entire episode has given rise to many unforeseen queries within myself! ofcourse about self-worth, values, interactions, its huge influence, the need for comradeship, need for just plain girl talk, actually missing someone after a longish while, missing coz u begin to miss parts of you; bottom line being...comfort of a good friend, a real one, with no tags or frills attached, is irreplacable! n ure a gonner if u happen to be in the dumps, sans the comfort!! and this is enlightment, come unwarranted!!!

This and that...

Missed out on the finals! And ofcourse wanted Djokovic to win! :) Anyhow, give the devil its due...Well loved the tournament this time around. After a longish while got to see some of the matches, and loved every minute of it. Was left to wonder how or why one is riveted to this game where two individuals just happen to hit, to and forth an insignificant object, while we are left to hold our breath each time it whizzes or crashes past those white parallel, perpendicular white lines, marvelling at the speed, angle, dexterity, and audacity of the shots! And the sudden flash of the Indian-Pakistan duo, wow, was so heartwarming and a strange feeling, seeing them out there, and what a game, gave one the goosebumps! Also took me back, those years, when i used to be glued to the TV, backing or religiously rooting for Ivan Lendl, Mats Wilander, Boris Becker, Stefan Edberg, Andre Agassi, Steffi Graff, Gabriella Sabatini and a few more..And after such a long gap being able to absolutely relish the essence of the game almost with the same intensity, was so surprising and comforting too!


Got to see some snatches of movies, like, The Reader, G.I.Jane, Cast Away, Hum Raaz(!), Serendipity,ye tera ghar...and sections of it making a mark somewhere, somehow; watched The Duchess, the entire movie and loved it, loved keira knightley, has done a terrific job i would think.

Was doing some impromptu counselling, related to newly-weds problems!! And caught myself stating how, as years go by you more or less get what youve always wanted to, but it takes time and loads of patience. I think men too go through these cycles of finding and losing and finding again one's 'self'. For women the cycles are a bit too long at times, and a bit too strenuous too! And aptly enough going through a phase of 'ok, im this, and this and this..mebe a little bit of this too..mebe not..', urgh!!!